Ever been in a situation that caused you to analyze every decision you made leading up to you arriving in that moment? I remember one time when I was on stage at a sex show in Amsterdam. There was a man in a gorilla suit that was - shall we say - anatomically correct. And his phallus discharged a liquid that I dearly hope believe was water. I don't know why I was on that stage nor do I recall what my role in the audience participation segment of that show was. I just know that it was awkward.